I had a complete breakdown on the boy last night. He now knows why I feel how I do about my weight. Well at least how I explained it to the best of my abilities. I've learned it is so hard to really explain things when the other person has never been there. Like my parents. Sure they are supportive, but they don't really know what I've went through emotionally to get where I am in my WLJ, because they've never had to worry about their weights. Neither has the boyfriend. Up until last night he was always like, "you're beautiful, you don't need to change anything..." blah blah blah. But I think he is starting to understand my side of things. And he said he would always be supportive of me and love me no matter what.
With all of these breakdowns in the last week, I feel free. It's hard to put into words, but I'm sure some of you can relate. I know that this time I'm in the right place mentally and emotionally to get through this.