So I had yesterday off, and I just didn't think about weighing myself until I had already eaten breakfast. So I did it this morning instead.
This week: 258.2 (+4.8)
Massive gain. I was expecting a gain, maybe not that big, but I can't really say I'm surprised. I was horrible last week. I didn't track at all, and I binged a couple times. The worst was Friday. I wasn't hungry, but I couldn't stop myself from eating and snacking. I got physically ill afterwards. Well, it actually started before I finally made myself stop eating, but even with a horrible stomach ache, I couldn't make myself stop. This was the first time that happened in a really long time. I actually can't remember the last time it was this bad.
I need to work on my relationship with food, because I know it isn't a good one. I've known that for a long time. But I've never really admitted it before. I'm going to research books, and hopefully figure out a way to work through this on my own. But if I can't, I'm not opposed to OA or therapy.
First step, having a planned menu.
Today looks like this:
B: 2 medium eggs, slice of provolone, english muffin, orange juice
L: salad with hard boiled egg, slice of deli ham, ranch and lots of veggies, pack of skinny cow candy for dessert
D: potato casserole with sausage
S: apple, banana, orance, chobani, sugar free jello (doubt I'll need them all, but I like to be prepared)