A week

It's been a week since my relationship ended. I've been so strong, mainly since Sunday. Now, I want to cry. Probably because he was going to be going to the dog show with me this weekend, and of course now, he's not. And today would have been three months to the wedding. I know we made the right decision, but it hurts still. Hopefully this weekend away will be beneficial to me.

I will not cry, I will not cry, I will not cry.

Scale Tales and Changes

-3.2 at WI last night!!  Total lost is now 6.6.  Which I will totally take!

So much has happened in the last week, and I don't even know where to start.  I guess the biggest thing is that I ended my relationship with Clayton. We had our differences. He wanted me around more than I was, and I like my alone time. I'm independent, and don't like feeling smothered (not that he really smothered me). The problems really started happening Memorial Day weekend, and we had made it through that hurdle. I tried to get him to work things out, he said he needed time/space, so I removed all of my things from his house. It was definitely a hard decision to make, and I really love him. But sometimes love isn't enough. We will both pick up and move on.

I'm going to move my job search to more populated areas and closer to school. I've set goals for myself. I want to concentrate on making me happy now. I've always put everyone else first, and at 24, I think it is time to put myself first.  I have a wonderful support system and want to give my all to school and finding a better job. Depending on where I eventually land a job and if I have to move right away or not, my goal is to buy a house next fall. Once my student loans go into deferment again (hopefully next month since the new loans will be distributed), I'm going to start throwing money into savings. My goal (as long as I'm living at home) is to live off of one pay check, and save the other. Totally doable, I just have to stay focused and disciplined.

As much as it hurts right now, I know deep down it was for the best. We ultimately wanted different things. He was happy with a job, I want a career. He loves being around family and friends, and while I do as well, I also extremely value and need alone time. Nothing wrong with either of us, we just want different things in a relationship/marriage. It just wasn't meant to be.

June Wrap-Up

Personally, June was a great month for me!  Let's re-cap

The Goals:
1. WO 4-5 times a week. -I hit this one all but the 3rd week in June.
2. Lose 5-10 lbs. -I didn't hit this one, but I did lose 2.2 last month. Doesn't seem like much, but to me, it is success.
3. Track Everything. -Huge success. I have tracked 100% since June 4th!

I was by far more active this month than I have been in a long time. I found Zumba, and love it.  I feel so much better since I'm moving more!  I can tell a difference in how my clothes (some of them) are fitting. I saw a number on the scale this morning (an unofficial weigh in) and it made me super excited and motivated! 

I want to feel like this at the end of every.single.month. That is my goal. To start feeling good about myself!

I'll be back later today, hopefully, with some goals for July!

Goal Update

Last week wasn't the greatest. WI was +2.2. But it is that wonderful time of month, and my birthday was Sunday, and there was cake to be had. I'm not horribly surprised, but of course, I wish it would have been a loss or at least a smaller gain.

Here's the weekly update to the June Goals.

1. WO 4-5 times a week.  Not quite check. I got in 3
2. Lose 5-10 lbs. I don't see this one getting met this month. I'm at  +0.6...
3. Track Everything. Check! This has been the biggest success of the month. I've tracked everything completely since June 4th.

Holy Zumba

So, I went to my first ever Zumba class last night, and I'm pretty sure I've never sweated so much in my entire life.  But I absolutely loved it. I had a blast, and I'll definitely be adding that to my calendar for Tuesdays and Thursdays. I feel great this morning, a little sore, but great. Hopefully I have finally found a workout that I'll stick with. The hour flew by, and I honestly didn't even think about looking at the clock. I'm really excited about this!

Heavy Heart

Anyone that has been following for any length of time knows that my dogs are a big part of my life.  A couple months ago I posted that our old girl, Marin, had thyroid cancer. Sadly, yesterday she lost her battle. Over the weekend she was starting to show signs of not acting like herself. She wasn't as eager to leave her crate, and she seemed to just not feel well.  Two months ago, we made her the promise that she wouldn't suffer, and yesterday we had to make good on that promise, as hard as it was. 

I still remember being so excited when mom got home from picking her up from her breeder. Dad and I were peeking out of the living room window when she hopped out of the van.  She was a wonderful girl, and gave us 11 amazing years being our pet.  She was truly a gem, and made an incredible impact on the Dalmatian breed from the whelping box.

Until we meet again my sweet girl...

Goal update

In keeping up with my June Goals, here's an update from last week.

1.WO 4-5 times a week.  No check, I got in 2/4
2. Lose 5-10 lbs. So far I'm down 1.6 for the month.  If I stay on track, I can definitley hit at least 5 lbs for the month. 2 more weeks!
3. Track Everything. Double check! Tracking is definitely the reason I had a 2.6 lb loss last night!