Scale Tales Monday, er, Tuesday

So I had yesterday off, and I just didn't think about weighing myself until I had already eaten breakfast.  So I did it this morning instead.

This week: 258.2 (+4.8)

Massive gain.  I was expecting a gain, maybe not that big, but I can't really say I'm surprised.  I was horrible last week.  I didn't track at all, and I binged a couple times.  The worst was Friday.  I wasn't hungry, but I couldn't stop myself from eating and snacking.  I got physically ill afterwards.  Well, it actually started before I finally made myself stop eating, but even with a horrible stomach ache, I couldn't make myself stop.  This was the first time that happened in a really long time.  I actually can't remember the last time it was this bad. 

I need to work on my relationship with food, because I know it isn't a good one.  I've known that for a long time.  But I've never really admitted it before.  I'm going to research books, and hopefully figure out a way to work through this on my own.  But if I can't, I'm not opposed to OA or therapy.

First step, having a planned menu.
Today looks like this:
B: 2 medium eggs, slice of provolone, english muffin, orange juice
L: salad with hard boiled egg, slice of deli ham, ranch and lots of veggies, pack of skinny cow candy for dessert
D: potato casserole with sausage
S: apple, banana, orance, chobani, sugar free jello (doubt I'll need them all, but I like to be prepared)

Scale Tales Monday

Last week: 257.4
This week: 256.8
Lost: 0.6
Total since recommitting: -3.4!

For the first time in as long as I can remember, I've consistently lost all month.  Definitely gives me hope that this time I will conquer this and be fully successful.

After yesterday, I have successfully tracked every single bite for 3 straight weeks.  That is unheard of, but I did it.  Which also helps prove to myself that if I put my mind to it, I can do it.  Today I'm going to work on another 3 week challenge for myself (while still tracking).  I'm thinking workout related. While I've been more active than usual, it still isn't where I want to be (I earned 8 APs last week, and want to push for 15 or so for a week to begin with). So I'm leaning towards some kind of workout challenge for myself.


Today's menu looks like this

B: 1 egg cooked in EVOO, 1 mini bagel, slice of provolone and 1/2 tsp of sugar free blackberry jam.
L: Big salad with leftover steak from last night, 2 tbsp of ranch
D: Meatloaf with some veggies
S: banana, grapes, orange, pear, chobani apple cinnamon greek yogurt and sugar free chocolate pudding.